I am a highly sensitive person – you too?
Since I was a kid, I did not really fit in. And honestly I also never did really care about that much. I was always more interested in music, art, books, stories and enjoyed the company of animals usually much more then people. I grew up in a small, rural town and my class mates did not really relate to much higher interests, so we had little in common.
I was always very sensitive to energies and people’s emotions and always intuitively knew what their problem was. But when you are a kid, you usually think you are the reason for all of it. Clearly my world was different to the world of the others and it took me quite some time to realize what it was, that made me feel different. At this time some 30 years ago, there was no such thing like being highly sensitive. You would be a freak, a weirdo or as a young woman just hysterical.
Being highly sensitive means that you experience the world in another way then most people. A lot of normal things can feel extremely disturbing. Feelings of others, noise, large crowds, packed trains can put you under stress. You feel easily offended, feel rage and anger or have a problem with stressful situations of all kinds. Feeling hungry can make you feel odd and irritated. Your digestive system is very vulnerable and certain food or stressful situations can effect your digestion or give you some terrible headache. Skin conditions like Psoriasis or Neurodermatitis and all sorts of inflammation can also be a sign of increased stress levels. And these higher stress levels are the main reason, why highly sensitive people need to have a much, much higher level of protection. Good and strong boundaries are inevitable! If you let through everything to your inner core, you will suffer and get sick.
Many of us can feel also easily overwhelmed by emotions of other people and sometimes we do not recognize that those emotions are not even ours. This is the most tricky thing to sort out. Sometimes I feel emotions I cannot relate to what had happened around me. Feeling unsettled or irritated although nothing special had happened usually means that I had taken on energies which are not mine. This was the most important lesson for me to learn, because this uncontrollable emotional flooding was unsettling me for a very long time. I needed to learn to distinguish what is mine and what not. These energies can be very random and from everywhere. I realized the more I know myself, the easier it is to distinguish my own feelings from “pollution energy”. Being mindful and meditating helps also a lot, getting in touch with my inner world.
But I still need to be careful with my energy. I need a lot alone-time when I had been in contact with many people. Sometimes contact is very inspiring, but too much contact is draining for me. Luckily over the years I got a lot better with this kind of situation. What really made a difference was getting in a state of loving presence and awareness. Being present means I am fully by myself. In this kind of state, the energy flows easily around me and does not affect me at all. I feel light and relaxed and can relate to anyone passing by with ease. Don’t get me wrong – this did not happen overnight and I took a lot of work to get there. It doesn’t always work and it depends on my own energy level.
Keeping my energy field intact means also clearing it from energies I don’t need anymore or want to get rid off. This is an easy ritual I do on a regular basis.
Ritual for releasing old energies
This ritual helps me releasing energy which is not helpful for me anymore or does not belong to me.
First find a quiet place where you can spend the next 20 minutes or so without being disturbed (and switch off your phone!).
For those of you, who have already some ritual experience, you can light candles in white, rosé and lime green and smudge some sage (but mind the open fire of course).
I personally create the space as I feel it is good for me for the moment. Sometimes I like all of that including opening a sacred space with my rattle and sometimes I don't. Just listen inside what feels right for you!
1. Sit comfortably or lie down on the ground. I prefer lying, because the more of the body touches the ground, the easier the energy flows.
2. Close your eyes and take a deep breath. Now breath naturally and follow the flow of air through your body. With every new breath, imagine you are soaking white light in and let it spread all over, into every cell. Feel the weight of your body on the ground.
3. And now when it feels good for you, repeat the following words (or something similar, whatever fits for you): "I honor all energies which have served and protected me until this very moment. I thank you for your help and support. But now it's time to release and give back what is not needed anymore. May it go back to the eternal source and be of use for someone else."
4. Now feel the energies flowing through your body into the ground. Sense the weight of your body now.
5. Keep breathing naturally and soak up new energy and light. And whenever it feels right for you, gently open your eyes and come back to the here and now.
Be gentle with yourself until you have arrived in your body and be careful with everything you do until you feel firmly grounded again. You can support this with gently rubbing your body and taking some deep breaths.
Being highly sensitive is a gift for me in the meanwhile. But I am also aware that I need to be extra careful with my energy and my boundaries. And I know that I do not need to fit in anywhere. I don't punish myself for having a different idea of this world and I respect my needs.